Sophie Is A Geek
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sophieisgodThe first round of Hogsmeade results are up, and my eulogy for Tonks placed second! I got points! Anyway, I knocked it up 20 minutes before the deadline, and it's painfully cheesy to read, but I may as well post it. Because I hate you all and want you to share in my pain.
It's from Andromeda's POV, just so you know.
It’s a strange feeling, when your daughter rejects the name you chose for her. When she rails against it on a daily basis, it stings a little bit. It’s almost as if she’s disowning you. It’s as if she’s disowning herself. But then, my Nymphadora spent her whole life reinventing who she was, consciously and unconsciously. And then, just as she had found the person that she wanted to be, she was taken from us. It seems so cruel.
I think it was always hard for Nymphadora. Harder than she ever told us, anyway. It must have been so exhausting, trying to establish an identity for herself, when there was so much about her that didn‘t really fit. She was the girl whose appearance was in constant flux; she was descended from one of the most ancient pure-blood families, and from a Muggle-born; she was the Auror who made loud noises and tripped over a lot. And yet, while she was trying to reconcile these aspects of who she was, everyone who knew her saw something that was utterly, indefinably Tonks. She just never seemed to realise.
And then she fell in love. With a werewolf. It would be a lie to say that her father and I were thrilled, but, barring the odd abandonment crisis, we came to see how fiercely she and Remus loved each other, how well they complemented each other. Where he was restrained, she was open to a fault. He steadied her, and she brought light back into his world. For the first time in her life, he made her feel as if she had a place in the world. When Remus called her ‘Dora’, she didn’t complain. And the two of them, together, gave me my perfect grandson, Teddy, who will always know how much they loved him.
It was love that sent Nymphadora to Hogwarts on the night that she and Remus were killed. Love for her husband, that would not allow her simply to stand and watch while he fought; love for her son, that spurred her to fight for a better world for him. She could have stayed at home. She didn’t. So now I say goodbye to my beautiful, brave daughter, Nymphadora Tonks-Lupin. She was a wife, and a mother. She was an Auror, and a warrior. She was a lover, and she was loved.
Ugh, that wasn't a eulogy, that was me wanking on and on and IT'S ALL ABOUT REMUS, REALLY. I suck :)
It's from Andromeda's POV, just so you know.
It’s a strange feeling, when your daughter rejects the name you chose for her. When she rails against it on a daily basis, it stings a little bit. It’s almost as if she’s disowning you. It’s as if she’s disowning herself. But then, my Nymphadora spent her whole life reinventing who she was, consciously and unconsciously. And then, just as she had found the person that she wanted to be, she was taken from us. It seems so cruel.
I think it was always hard for Nymphadora. Harder than she ever told us, anyway. It must have been so exhausting, trying to establish an identity for herself, when there was so much about her that didn‘t really fit. She was the girl whose appearance was in constant flux; she was descended from one of the most ancient pure-blood families, and from a Muggle-born; she was the Auror who made loud noises and tripped over a lot. And yet, while she was trying to reconcile these aspects of who she was, everyone who knew her saw something that was utterly, indefinably Tonks. She just never seemed to realise.
And then she fell in love. With a werewolf. It would be a lie to say that her father and I were thrilled, but, barring the odd abandonment crisis, we came to see how fiercely she and Remus loved each other, how well they complemented each other. Where he was restrained, she was open to a fault. He steadied her, and she brought light back into his world. For the first time in her life, he made her feel as if she had a place in the world. When Remus called her ‘Dora’, she didn’t complain. And the two of them, together, gave me my perfect grandson, Teddy, who will always know how much they loved him.
It was love that sent Nymphadora to Hogwarts on the night that she and Remus were killed. Love for her husband, that would not allow her simply to stand and watch while he fought; love for her son, that spurred her to fight for a better world for him. She could have stayed at home. She didn’t. So now I say goodbye to my beautiful, brave daughter, Nymphadora Tonks-Lupin. She was a wife, and a mother. She was an Auror, and a warrior. She was a lover, and she was loved.
Ugh, that wasn't a eulogy, that was me wanking on and on and IT'S ALL ABOUT REMUS, REALLY. I suck :)
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Date: 2007-12-23 07:54 pm (UTC)LOL.
I like it. I don't think it's sooo completely cheesy ^-^
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:03 pm (UTC)♥ It's pretty cheesy. In my defence, this was written at about 4 in the morning..
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Date: 2007-12-23 07:58 pm (UTC)I'm usually a little averse to first-person fics, but I really like this. :)
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:05 pm (UTC)I know, I'm not a big fan either, but the challenge was to write a eulogy for someone who died in DH. Evil prompt-masters!
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:10 pm (UTC)Anywho, I finished Oliver Twist. d00d, the end with Sikes running around all crazy consumed by guilt and then hanging himself? AWESOME. And Dodger "becoming" Sikes? AWESOME. Oliver reunited with his family and fortune? WHATEVER. Oh Dickens, you always make me sympathetic to the wrong characters.
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:14 pm (UTC)Silly Dickens. Maybe it's because it's The Moz, but I find Bradley Headstone strangely attractive. Which is very, veyr messed up. HOMG, TOM KILLED ME WHEN HE WAS ALL "You're okay, Nance, you're not dead, la la la la not listening". SEX IN A GRUBBY COAT AND WITH A FUNNY LOOKING DOG, HE IS. Oliver who?
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:28 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-12-23 08:34 pm (UTC)This is really worrying. I don't want to end up a battered wife! TV IS MAKING ME FLOPSY.
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:50 pm (UTC)ME TOO, SOPHIE. ME TOO.
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:55 pm (UTC)Ooh, HAVE YOU SEEN THE FUCKING SPOILERY PICTURE FOR EL HOOD FINALE?!
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Date: 2007-12-23 10:10 pm (UTC)NO! LINKZ, PLZ. *grabby hands*
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Date: 2007-12-23 10:15 pm (UTC)It is epic (http://community.livejournal.com/robinhoodbbc/610538.html#cutid1).
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Date: 2007-12-23 11:04 pm (UTC)B. A. M. F.
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Date: 2007-12-23 11:15 pm (UTC)Poor Allan, though. But then there has to be CONSEQUENCES FOR THE BETRAYAL. But, you know, when I was casually watching last year, when Harry Lloyd hadn't even registered with me (yes, there was once so dark a time), I preferred Allan/Djaq to Will/Djaq. Huh. But now I'm INVESTED.
*bounces*
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:08 pm (UTC)IT'S ALL ABOUT REMUS, REALLY.--------AND SO IT SHOULD BE :D
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Date: 2007-12-23 08:18 pm (UTC)IT ALWAYS, ALWAYS IS.
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Date: 2007-12-23 09:31 pm (UTC)It is nowhere near as bad, for example, as the Guy/Marian Christmas ficlet I just wrote for
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Date: 2007-12-23 10:19 pm (UTC)YAY FOR FLUFF! Esp. of the G/M variety. Guy amuses me :)
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Date: 2007-12-24 03:57 am (UTC)The thing about Guy is that it's a challenge not to write him as a complete sap, to try and capture all his facets. Guess that's partly because I'm a girl trying to write from a bloke's point of view, which is always challenging.
It is far far too easy to write him as a soppy twat, all OH MARIAN I LOVE YOU AND WILL DO NOTHING EXCEPT ANGST OVER YOU. Which , you know, is PART of the character but only part. :)
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Date: 2007-12-24 04:40 am (UTC)I find it really interesting writing Guy, but, oddly enough, I don't have the soppy problem AT ALL. I was really interested in him sort of mid-S2, because in my head he recognised on some level that Marian was totally playing him, but kind of didn't care because he had her trapped in this situation anywhere. Obviously, there was redemption!angst, because the pairing is what it is, but I was fascinated by the idead that there was something very dark constantly lurking behind that. My Guy could get very violent very quickly. I don't mean that I was writing nasty nasty rape!fic, or anything, just that he had a tendency to slam out a gloved hand and pin Marian's arm to the wall, or something. Ugh, I don't know. I never got round to posting any of it, because I never had a proper plot! They were sort of more psychological, moody type things. And then, if I was ever going to post it, that thing we call canon! came along and made him all heroic and mushy. Not that I'm complaining...
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Date: 2007-12-25 06:06 pm (UTC)That's a very interesting point. I really like the way Richard Armitage plays Guy. He could have been flat and stereotypical, but he's made him a much more faceted character.
I guess violence has become a learned response for him; you see that in Locksely at the beginning of S1 particularly.
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Date: 2007-12-23 11:31 pm (UTC)Just that- My Nymphadora.
I love how you play with the concept of Tonks reinventing herself. Physically she could (I hate this PAST TENSE business! JK! What have you DONE?!) take on any form she wished but the way that Andromeda is referring to this is of course deeper. Being able to shift her appearance was part and parcel of what her daughter was but trying to figure out who she as and what she wanted was who her daughter was. And she was so young- they always are- over to Theoden: "The young perish and the old linger, withering". Unless you're Dumbledore. Or Gandalf- persay. Lot of fan wank going on in this review, Wifey :D
Sophie needs to write more about our little Lupin.
That was lovely, my dear. I'm sure that post-Christmas at least half of us should own OotP. It is time... Once upon a time there was another Harry in our world and his surname wasn't Lloyd xXx